“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses. You build up a whole armor, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore…so a simple phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. I hate love.”
- Neil Gaiman | The Sandman #65
i’m scared. i don’t want to go through all of that again. but really, what choice do we have? all we can do is hope that we’ve trusted the right person.
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